The thing is, I don’t care what you have to say anymore. Like Dr. Seuss says, “Those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” something like that I think…Just stop. It’s actually really stupid.
I missed seeing that smile.
People and Things.
Today I was sitting after school on a bench. I was waiting for my mother to pick me up because that’s the kind of thing I have to go through being unlicensed. Anywho, I was looking down at my phone and when I looked up there was this couple in front of me. They were hugging and the girl’s back was turned towards me. I could see the boy’s face though and he had sad eyes. Really sad eyes. When the girl pulled away you could tell she was crying. They talked a little bit and she still was crying a little too. When the goodbyes came along, they hugged. It was a long hug again…and when they pulled away there wasn’t a kiss either. I witnessed this couple break up. I witnessed this girl’s heart being broken. Someone’s heart was breaking right in front of me. My friend was with me. He thought it was weird that I was watching the couple and that I watched people in general, but do you ever do that? Go someplace like an airport and look around at all the people. Wonder where people are going, who they’re going to and who they’re leaving. Who in that crowd has their heart broken? Who in that crowd is breaking someone’s heart? Do you ever wonder things like that? There are people surrounding us everyday and each and every one of them are going through something beyond the surface. A lot of people read the cover of the book; they don’t read the inside. They don’t actually know what’s going on. They don’t witness the heartbreak of a young girl. And they don’t witness the difficulty of letting someone go. They just see what’s there- what’s on the surface. And maybe we should start looking beyond that. Maybe we should start getting to know people. And maybe we should be careful what we say to others. Our words effect them. They leave more permanent damage than any scar or bruise. I don’t know how this couple led me to think in that manner, but it did. Maybe I’m weird and over think things and people, but I just felt sad today when I saw this girl’s heart being broken. I wanted to take it away for her. I wanted her to be happy because that’s what she was before the moment I had witnessed. I don’t know what to say now.
No that actually didn’t happen. And even if it did, why do you care? What’s the point in texting me saying these things if you don’t care? You’re really bad at not caring for someone who doesn’t “give a shit about me”.
I think I will always care. Not matter what.
I miss how everything used to be. I miss everyone in my life. Everything became so broken and there’s no way of fixing it at all now. You’re gone. For good. I can’t fix it. And it makes me so sad because there are so many memories…
